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It is New Year’s Eve and I suppose I should be thinking about what resolutions I will try to do this year. I really hate doing resolutions. In the past, I have not been creative with my resolution making. In fact, the resolutions I have made since college are on this top ten resolutions article. Talk about not being unique.
On top of being completely ordinary and non-creative with resolution making, I also never followed through with any of them. I would always pretend to care about them and make a solid effort for maybe the first few weeks in January, but by February I had either forgotten the resolution or I got distracted with some new project or life event. Resolutions or really even goals were really not a strong suit for me (especially when unmedicated) in the past. Goal setting requires some planning and organization and honestly those are the big reasons I still see a shrink every other month. He gives me homework to do like make a plan for this or that…which I usually forget to do. The only goals I even barely attained were the ones where my job or my life depended on making the goal. You see if there is no one overseeing my completion of a goal, then I really don’t care if I complete it. My Psychiatrist really is not much into overseeing the homework he gives… usually it is just a question I answer with a “well, I tried but…” response and we move on.
I am not intrinsically rewarded by reaching a goal or completing a resolution. I am really apathetic to whether I do it or not. In the past, I always resolved to lose weight. Did I fret when instead of losing weight I ended up gaining weight… not really. Two years ago, I really thought I was going to make a good effort. I created a blog and tried to find gym partners and although I started off strong, I soon lost interest in the gym or keeping up with blogging. Last year I actually would have attained my goal to lose weight if it had been a resolution. Funny, how that works.
So this year, I wonder if I should even try to make a resolution. If I did, what should I do? Should I go with the good ole’ standby resolutions or should I try to be more original?
I could make a resolution to do a marathon this year, but I know I would never actually put effort into it. I could care less about running or being able to say I ran a marathon.
I could make a resolution that I learn some new skill, but I honestly don’t have a clue what skill I want to learn. Hmm.
I could make a resolution to cook more and declutter and organize my house, but I am already trying to do those goals so I feel that is kind of cheating since it is not a real “New Year” resolution.
I think I have come up with a resolution though…
I resolve to try to complete something I want to complete.
Now, that is nice and vague (and not on the top 10 list either). I like it!
I think 2012 will be a year I keep my resolution.
May you do as well on your resolutions as I am going to do on my resolution!
Happy New Year!